have you ever turned a conversation over and over in your head? not been able to help making it muddier and messier with every turn?

have you ever waited for a message and felt dejection cloud your heart as the minutes try to sneak past?

have you ever found yourself laughing a little too loudly, just to trip on a bad mood the next step?

have you ever doubted your sanity?
doubled over in self hatred?
found yourself wishing instead of praying?
smothered yourself in self pity?
tried to ignore the feeling of being absolutely alone?
wanted a fantasy?