so it's like a roller coaster. and i'm getting scared like i always do in the slow chug chug chug bit at the beginning when the ride creeps up. before the world becomes an impressionist painting around me with the acceleration, before the downs and ups and upside downs. once we pick up speed i'm loving it. but i always hang on a little bit tighter as the ride begins, when the speed is slow. and sometimes i wonder what i'm doing suspended so high in the air (i've never been that good with heights).

but it's worth it in the end. and i love it in the end.

[thanks to you for lending me the simile.]